We’ve been here in metro DC for a little over a week, and we’re all settling in pretty nicely. Yes, all, including Lissy Lou! The first few days in our new place were awful–she cried a lot and neither of us humans got much sleep. However, since she got used to this apartment being her new home, she’s acted like she likes it even more than our old place. She actually gets up on the couch and the bed, which was rare before, and after looking suspiciously at her new cat tree for a couple of days, now she spends most of her time on it.
The fog of the ridiculous depression I’ve been under for the last week or so has finally started to lift. I’m smiling because I genuinely feel like it, not because people expect me to do it.
My anxiety has been better these last few days, and my depression has been worse. I think the decreased anxiety can be linked to the fact that I’ve been off work since Friday afternoon (not being on the front lines anymore definitely has its perks) and don’t go back until Wednesday. I worked for my in-laws the last two Saturdays, which has been nice because I feel like a) I can be helpful because I understand how pretty much everything in the office works and b) between my anxiety being more under control and the fact that it’s usually a much lower-pressure situation than retail, it’s actually a lot of fun most of the time. Also OMG CUTE PUPPIES AND KITTENS.
Anxiety-ridden past me would be freaking out right now. Everything is going so well that, back before I started treatment for my anxiety disorder, I would have been in a constant panic, waiting for everything to turn upside down.
I won’t deny that I still worry a little, but I’m really enjoying life right now for a lot of reasons.
If you know me in real life or you’ve followed this blog for any real length of time, you probably know that I’m constantly on a mission of self-improvement, especially physical self-improvement. I think a lot of that stems from the period of my life when I weighed over 180 pounds and cared little for my personal appearance.
This post is almost three months overdue. Last fall, I wrote this, and listed off some things I was going to try to do in the coming year. I posted an update to it on New Year’s Eve, but nothing since then. Was I successful?
This week has been a breeze compared to the last couple–well, for me anyway. Dallas is giving a lecture tomorrow that I’m not sure he’s so psyched up about, but I know he’ll be just fine. Time’s going to start going by pretty fast after this, I think; he’s going to Jerusalem at the end of the month, and most importantly, he will be home one month from tomorrow! We’ve spent a lot of our relationship long-distance, so it’s amazing to see the light at the end of the tunnel knowing this is the last long separation we’ll have to endure and it’s almost over.